growing in self-awareness
Had a good week in Dallas. We embarked on our maiden voyage as a facilitation team and helped a group of churches explore new possibilities for doing recovery ministry. People who have worked a recovery program are very attractive to me because they seemed to be way more relational, more transparent, and more in touch with their brokenness and humanity. These few days gave me a glimpse into this subculture, and a part of me wished I had a debilitating addiction so I can work recovery too. Most people do have addictions — just that many are socially acceptable, and many are not debilitating. As one participant rightly commented, the non-recovery people, “earth people” he called them, live in a culture that is not transparent. Bummer. This experience tapped into my awareness and insatiable need for transparent relationships. This to me is (a part of) being real + authentic.
Hung out with Ray Chang at DFW airport as we waited for our respective departing flights. I worked along side of Ray as executive pastor in the early years of Ambassador Bible Church from 1997 to 2000. Next month, that church will celebrate its 10th anniversary. We veered onto the topic of self-awareness. Personality tests have never been all that helpful to me for self-awareness, except for StrengthsFinder.
Life coaching was very helpful to me to discover more of my self-awareness. I took a 2-day personal retreat with a life coach (Craig Chong) in the summer of 2005. This life planning process reviewed my past life story as an indicator to what God had created me to do for the future. Self-awareness wasn’t just to give me enlightenment. It gave me much needed insight to pull together my skills and talents, my interests and passions, so I could do something I was good at AND enjoyed doing. As I approached the age 40, I was tired of working just to provide for myself and my family. I needed to make provisions by doing something I not only value but can enjoy. Now I’m working at my dream job.