brain mush

there is so much happening all around now.. just have to stay strong in faith even tho’ i don’t feel like it right now.. being drained and brain turned to mush, i still have to press on and persevere.. i don’t like not having the heartfelt nurture i want to have to get back to “normal”, but i don’t seem to have many choices.. i’m still going on with a full-plate of 2 part-time jobs, family life, ministry life, and preparing for a mission trip half way around the world in mid-May.. and as you can see from the timestamp, I’m up in the middle of an unreal hour.. have been up a while, playing chess online, if you’re a chess player, email me, maybe we can play some time.. comin’ off a weekend that shut me down (or it can be said, i chose to shut down), and now playing chess, it seems unfair that i still have to go strong regardless of how i feel.. the saying goes that the best defense is a strong offense.. and tho’ i don’t like that saying, that seems to be the challenge of faith for me.