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Nov 291999

had a nice relaxing holiday weekend, had both the parents and parents-in-law here for Thanksgiving.. and since we didn’t have a kitchen yet, we went out for a buffet at the local Hyatt.. my Dad raved that it was the best Western-style T’giving dinner he’s had, and we all enjoyed the food all around.. lots of great dessert items too, including cheesecake, carrot cake, pastries, and bread pudding.. getting to sleep in, enjoy good food, was quite refreshing; but the show must go on, and I’m back to the weekly routine now..

my greater motivation for life and ministry is seeing people grow in spirituality, particularly Christian spiritual formation.. it isn’t enough to have a person that is highly disciplined, or biblically literate, or productive or efficient or even effective, but that a person would be honest with his strengths and weaknesses, to have a healthy interdependence with others, and to build meaningful relationships with people, as an outflow of what Christ calls the essential commandments: to love God and to love others well.. I like how the apostle Paul put it, that he not only shared the gospel with the Thessalonians, but he shared his very life too.. that’s what I aim to do, share my life freely, genuinely, and fully with others

Nov 101999

can’t seem to get a good modem connection here at the new place.. i’m often cut off, or have terrible throughput, and even on some voice phone calls, i’m hearing noise on the phone lines.. it might be the internal wiring inside of this old house; and we’ll find out next week, when we get a second phone line in with fresh phone lines, we’ll know for sure.. for example right now, I’m connected up at 19.2k on a 56k modem calling another 56k modem. it’s not right.. here’s some characteristics about my tendencies, according to Myer-Briggs type indicator, personality test kind of thing.. I score out as an INTP, noted by thinking rationally and logically (and pensive!), leads by developing strategy, able to separate an idea from a person, learns by arguing and discussion, likes to grow in knowledge and competence, and not much into small talk and idle chatter (although I do enjoy chat rooms!)..

sobering + ready to go

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Nov 071999

slowly getting settled into our new home, but it’s going to take a while.. contractors keep getting backlogged, and we’re our windows and kitchen cabinets have yet to be installed..

heard a sobering message at church on death (you don’t get to hear messages on death and hell too often, almost never) and how it gives perspective to what life is all about.. i’m writing here to put on record, that if I die unexpectedly or accidentally, that I’m ready to go.. to depart from this world of pain and sorrow and to be present with the Lord. I don’t say the thing that many people say, that they’re afraid of death or don’t want to die; now I do say that I don’t want to suffer the pain that is often involved with dying, but I don’t mind dying whenever that happens. I live and die and no regrets. I’ve done what I can to live a life pleasing to God, with good conscience, though far from being perfect. My desire is that my life will not only make a little difference, but that I might be able to change the world. A tall order, yes, but worth the effort.

Felt very affirmed yesterday at a seminar of a missions conference, where we discovered our Myer-Briggs personality type, very similar to the Keirsey type indicator on which I am mapped to an INTP, which is a very rare category, less than 1% of the population. Why I felt affirmed is the distinct personality allows me to be a strategist, often curious and seeking knowledge and wisdom, and that it’s not terribly odd to not people that are like me, because statistically there aren’t too many of ‘us’ out there! And as a strategist and linker, I have a vital role to play in whatever organization or wherever I’m at. If only the compensation and appreciation were up to measure..

big screen

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Nov 051999

now i’m catching on to commuter’s life.. it’s about a 20- or 30- minute drive to & from work each weekday, and that pretty much uses up all the daylight hours, and on weekends, things are quite busy with extracurricular activities, so i’ve been wondering when will i be able to make time to mow the lawn and rake up the leaves?

had the windows delivered this week on Wednesday, and they’ll be installed the first of next week.. and got a nice bonus here at work- a 21″ Sony Trinitron Multiscan 520GS monitor :)

love change

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Nov 021999

it’s raining.. it’s pouring.. and i think i have furniture left out in the rain at the house.. we just moved this weekend from our apartment home of 2 years in Vienna (Merrifield) Virginia to my childhood home in Bethesda Maryland.. the house had been rented out for the past 25 years, and mostly neglected.. and with some tender love and care and lots of cash flow, we’re fixing it up to contemporary standards.. contractors that have been working at the house marvel at how old the faucets and outlets and other accessories are.. we’ll start unpacking after the windows are installed some time this week.. right now, it’s microwave dinners and cold cereal in the morning, while we wait for the kitchen to get done..

I’m reading Leadership Journal’s latest edition.. one of the best issues, as they’re talking about innovation.. I love change :)